Work stuff. mostly a rant.

wow do I have a lot to say... so I think I may break it up in some smaller, "these thoughts go together" entries. Easier to skim thru for my friends. ;)

Looks like my job may be ending tomorrow. I have mixed feelings about this. I will be glad to get away from the exact stuff I am doing now. It was fun before, but now it is just a pain in the ass.

I think I would be a lot less annoyed if they didn't keep telling me that their latest attempt to redo the way things works has actually made it easier for me. BULLSHIT. Easier, no. a much huger pain in the ass EVERY time. blah.

anyway.. the one good job I am *first* in line for wont be opening up until August.. and, altho a new career path has been opened up to me, there are less jobs available in it than there are in my present career path. So none for me. :(

it seems like as soon as people see me in person they decide that I am not svelte enough to work with them. :( this makes me very unthrilled. My last several agents have been magazine girls, and while I am a nebulous voice on the phone and a resume they are all OVER finding me work. as soon as they actually meet me in person... mmm.. not so much. GRRRRR

next post: health and stuff
ok. I have a lot of

health issues and stuff

so my sinus infection is gone. YAY...

I have been major-ly dehydrated since I got it tho. :( Trying to keep fluid in my system has been a matter of pouring more and more Gatorade down my throat and spending more and more time in the bathroom :(. I have been sucking down salt for the past day tho, and it seems to be helping a lot.

The biggest problem I have with the heat and all is it really hits me right in my apathetic anorexia. (it's not that I don't eat because I have body image issues, its that I have no *interest* in eating, and that it just doesn't occur to me. So I FORGET to eat... a lot... *sigh*). this discussion about a girl with serious issues reminded me that I should eat. (more about her in the next post).

So now I am munching on seriously salt encrusted edamame.

Mostly right now I am working on ridding myself of all the detritus I collected while I was depressed for a year and a half. *sigh* It's amazing how much shit I have now. Some of it I am going to sell on Ebay. (like the entire set of the Lion King Happy Meal toys, still in their wrappers -- that will hopefully garner some serious cash). Some stuff I will just give away to people that I know will use it. and a lot of the rest is just going away into the trash. *sigh*.

SG and the Plus sizes thread in the Fashion Forum

what a fabulous thread.

and Ajka RULES for the very polite "take it elsewhere" post followed by the more poignant "what the hell is your problem?" post directed to the woman who was posting with no actual pertinent information to give. I was seriously annoyed by her.

keep your psychosis in your own pants sweetie. I don't normally go off at people, but GODDAMN IT did she PISS ME OFF. I was ok with her, UNTIL SHE STARTED TO GET BITCHY ABOUT BEING ASKED TO LEAVE. Talk about not the right place or the right time. Good lord people. It's one thing to make a post to compliment or admire, or if you actually have information that is definitely pertinent to the thread, but Jesus. If it was going to be a "clothes don't fit *my* body right" thread, that is what it would have been CALLED in the FIRST PLACE!.

I have read some LJ posts about it. I have read the entire thread, and posted... a couple of times... HOWEVER. this just me RANTING. I shan't be emailing the offender because I do not *know* her. If I were to *meet* her I would tell her in *person* just exactly how much and why she pissed me off with her attitude and total lack of comprehension.

But until that time comes, here it is for you:

by saying she found a cloak in size 14 at the Red Light so "there's hope" she was implying that that was as high as anyone would need a size to be.. or that size 14 was even remotely close to size 24, or even more that it never occurred to her that there might be sizes over 14.

talk about denying your existence. Perhaps it is her own body image issues that make her think that she is as large as people might ever come. I have no idea. I do know that if you are a plus size, you *know* you are a plus size. there is no doubt about it. If you have any room to doubt about it, you probably don't actually need to worry about it.

But I have to say that the comments that followed were WAY OVER THE TOP! JESUS CHRIST PEOPLE JUST BECAUSE WE ARE GOTHS IT DOESNT MEAN WE HAVE TO TURN EVERY GODDAMN CONVERSATION INTO AN EXCUSE FOR FUCKING DRAMA!!!!!!!!!!!!! Grow the FUCK UP!. The Bashing of skinny people that occurred on the thread for a few posts was just as bad as the bashing of fat was in the one comment, perhaps more so because of the NUMBER of posts. Good god.

the only bright spots in the whole thing are few women that didn't rise to the occasion (*sigh* of which I am unfortunately *not* one). namely Jilli (who truly is a voice of reason) and Deirdre (whose only comment was a posted envy of the ability to actually FILL out a corset.) Thank you both ladies. It is good to have friends like the two of you on my side to keep me sane. :)

oh YEAH... I *almost* forgot: I need HELP

I am sooooo close to the industrial fish... I am thinking I have the fish itself down... now I just need to know what to *write* in it.. the whole Words thing...

I was thinking...

Rivet Head
or something that is the equivalent in GERMAN..

anyone have any ideas? I am seriously in need of suggestions. ALtho I do love the music, I do not know the terminology appropriate for this scene. :( HELP!!