dark moods.

lots of reminders of my past, my more distant past. Places and people I haven't thought of in a long time...

and no H- not the ones you and I talked about.

It makes me feel old and tired. and very very sad.

and just a little violent and angry. so I didn't go out tonight at all.

I dunno. Going up to the hill during Pride seems to always leave me feeling really fucked up. I think perhaps I should avoid it in the future. :(

Maybe it is the problem with being Bisexual in a Hetero/Homo world. I think my Uncle's have a harder time dealing with me being Bi (they are Gay) than my Grandmother did (she was straight, just for reference). I dunno, maybe it is just all of the memories.

Think I will go cry for a while, or maybe kill things in a video game. Maybe both.

and then sleep.

Lights and Camera

time for a photo shoot.

My model is on the porch putting on her make up now... YAY...

I love to take the pregnant mommy shots. they are soooo fun. ;)

This should help my mood a lot. :)

I hope your days are going well.

good shoot

there were a few shots that were just cool. so cool.

one looks like she is bleeding out of the wall... well ok, I have several shots of this pose thing... but it looks soo good... me and photoshop will make it look better, unless she beats me to it... always a possibility with her.

and one set of shots that look like they are in utero or something, the pregnant woman within the womb... very Schroedinger...

I am happy with the shoot. she seems happy with the shoot too.