They say confession is good for the soul...

[staxxy]

and I feel terribly terribly guilty...

I have been trying very hard to not go all spendy crazy...

But there is this Bead Show that happens once a year at the Seattle Center...

and so I go, every year.


and every year I have a *budget*, I tell myself "this much, only this much..." But I leave a little in reserve *just in case*. And every year... there is stuff that I don't see anywhere, not the year before or the year after... Just there that one time... and It has a use or a reason...

so this year I blew my budget by way way way too much.I spent about 140$. I budgeted for 70$. The thing is, well, it was all stuff I would have bought anyway over the next few months. Well... the stuff that I *could* find... Only if I had bought it over the next few months, altogether if would have cost me about 150$ more.

Is it worth spending 150$ to save 150$?

OK, so I have spending demons. I have a lot of money guilt from my childhood. I feel like I should atone or something. I dunno to who, or why...
I just feel like an asshole. Even tho I know that most of what I bought is going to be used to make a lot of other people very happy, and for a while. I make really pretty jewelry, and it lasts for a long time. occasionally I sell stuff, but mostly I give it to people that I think need to have it. It makes me happy to make people smile, and to let them know that I do love them.


at least now I have the things to make presents for a couple of people that i wanted to make things for over the next few weeks.

Comments

[sistawendy.livejournal.com]

I know about the spending guilt, thanks to goth garage sales. :D Seriously, though, not having stuff because you did exercise self-control can also be torture.

Re: True enough

[staxxy.livejournal.com]

and now I have some new lovely necklaces and earrings. :D