I had been having a bad feeling about it...

[staxxy]

I got laid off today.

It wasn't because I wasn't good enough. It wasn't because they were unhappy with my work. It wasn't even because they didn't like me.

It was because Ron (My Boss) underestimated his needs, and he thought a good assistant would fit the bill. In the end he needs an Executive Assistant with at least 5 years experience doing EA work in Architecture. He needs someone that will totally anticipate what he actually needs. I listen well, I take direction well, and I can learn to anticipate stuff, but he needs someone that can do it immediately and stuff. He is never in the office to kinda show the way and communicate his needs. He arranged to give me severance pay. He thanked me a lot for all the work I have done for him and the office. He said that he would love to be a great reference for me.

He hugged me when he left (which was a few minutes before I did). He told me to call him if I needed anything.

Sometimes I think it is easier if the people letting you go don't actually like you. And they aren't actually nice to you and stuff.

So I keep having this bouts of weeping and being ok and weeping again.

Tomorrow I will call unemployment to see if I qualify. Tomorrow I will call my unemployment agents again.

Today I will mourn the loss of my job. The loss of my steady income. and the loss of my plans for the future. Today I mourn the loss of the security I *had*.

Comments

[m-cobweb.livejournal.com]

*Hugs* to you, sweetie. I'm really, really sorry. I don't know what else to say, but I've got a shoulder to cry on if you need it.

Re: Thanks

[staxxy.livejournal.com]

I just might take you up on that.

[sistawendy.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Yeah, I've been there too, and oh boy does it suck.

Re: too much time.

[staxxy.livejournal.com]

I was unemployed and temping for a couple of years before they hired me for this. and what really sucks is I let another opportunity for a good job go because this job was such a fabulous opportunity I couldn't say no.

I don't regret taking the job. I am just really sad right now. :(

[pikakyosei.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry Stax....But I'm sure that you'll get another job soon. Expecially if your prior boss liked you, I'm sure he'll help as well as he can.

Re: Thanks!

[staxxy.livejournal.com]

I hope so. It took a long time to find this job. I hope it doesn't take long to find another.

[djeternaldarkne.livejournal.com]

Sorry to hear that Honey...:(

Re: yeah me too

[staxxy.livejournal.com]

on the bright side, I don't feel so bad about not being able to do it all there. Turns out he really needs more than I can give him. He needs 2 people. He needs a graphics person that will just do graphics, and he needs an EA that knows Architecture really well.

It makes me feel lots better for just being able to hold my head above water...

[oracle2c.livejournal.com]

I am so sorry. I hate loss.
You are a wonderful, outgoing, talented person, and this job may have been just a stepping stone.
Have a good cry, scream and shout,then pick up the pieces and go on.
My heart is with you.

Re: Thanks.

[staxxy.livejournal.com]

I am working on it. Right now I mourn. TOmorrow i pick up the pieces.

Freedom's Just another word for...

[sarmonster.livejournal.com]

Everything happens for a reason
I'm with Oracle: A job is merely a starting block for your next career move. This is the perfect opportunity to decide where you want to go in the future -with lots of incentive to move ahead.

Hang in there!!!

Re: Freedom's Just another word for...

[staxxy.livejournal.com]

thanks.

[vulture23.livejournal.com]

Aw, crap. That really sucks.

>hugs<

Hopefully something else will come along soon, that may be even better... but in the meantime, mourning for a bit is a good thing. If there's anything I can do for you, let me know....

Re: Thanks.

[staxxy.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[wingedelf.livejournal.com]

Something else will come along. I'm not sure when, but i'm hoping it'll be shortly.

Re: Thanks!

[staxxy.livejournal.com]

I am really feeling loved right now. I just wish Spydr would wake up.

*hugs*

Re: Thanks!

[dekeboy.livejournal.com]

Sorry. I don't know what to say, other than I can empathize. That doesn't change anything, I know. But At least you've got a hero in your corner..(For whatever thats worth.)


**bearhug**

Re: Thanks!

[staxxy.livejournal.com]

YAY!!! I got a SuperHero on my side!!!

It will be ok... eventually.

[inanna.livejournal.com]

*hug* Love and good thoughts coming your way, dear-one. *hug*

Re: Thanks!

[staxxy.livejournal.com]

The support of my friends helps a lot on days like this.

[jenblue.livejournal.com]

I think all the sentiments have been shared, lovely, but add mine to the pot. I hope this next search doesn't take as long as the last one. And while I may not have been right where you are now with this layoff, I understand the unemployed for years thing, and I sympathise. *hugs*

Re: Thanks.

[staxxy.livejournal.com]

Yeah. I took a nap and I feel a little better. Spydr is here now and he is taking me out for breakfast.

[julzerator.livejournal.com]

*big hugs*

My boss was also like that... he very much liked me and appreciated what I did... but he couldn't afford to keep me on the roster. And you are right, it is harder to be laid off from a job that the boss is nice to you and is worried about you.

Look into UI TODAY. Get it started asap. You can go to their website at http://www.go2ui.com (http://www.go2ui.com)

Re: Thanks.

[staxxy.livejournal.com]

as part of the severence/leaving package there was a bunch of info for applying to ULI. I tried to fill out the form this afternoon but it was denied because I missed a spot or something. so I am going to go thru and try it again tomorrow.

>>>HUGE hug<<<<

[mspurplepearl.livejournal.com]

Stinky-stinky-stinky...

I remember how excited you were when you got this job: try to remember how accomplished you felt. You can do that once, you can do that again. That great feeling of being "the best one for the job" will come again. You are talented and skilled: something else will come along (soon, I hope).

You will land on your feet: many, many people are sending good JuJu your way.

Love and kisses,
~pearl

Re: >>>HUGE hug<<<<

[staxxy.livejournal.com]

Thanks. I really appreciate it. :D

[ozitonaranjo.livejournal.com]

What you need is a good cup of hot tea and a nice, toasted crumpet with jam and clotted cream.

I'll send some good wishes your way in hopes that you'll not be out of work longer than necessary.

Re: Thanks

[staxxy.livejournal.com]

yeah.. maybe tea and a bubble bath later. :)

drat drat drat

[cupcake-goth.livejournal.com]

Sweetie, I'm *so* sorry! You know you have my sympathies. But this just means something better for you will come along.

{{{hug}}}

Re: drat drat drat

[staxxy.livejournal.com]

and I suddenly have more time to spend...

bleah! bleah! bleah!

[treebyleaf.livejournal.com]

Phoo.

:(

Re: bleah! bleah! bleah!

[staxxy.livejournal.com]

very much so. *sigh*

[imsosquare.livejournal.com]

That sucks big eggs, Chica. I wish there was more I could do to help. You know you've got my ear, my shoulder, my hand for holding, hugs... you get the point... anytime you need it. You know where to find me.
Besides, it seems *I've* still got plenty of time to blow now too...

Re: Heh

[staxxy.livejournal.com]

yeah. It seems lots of people do. :(

*sigh*