staxxy | dark moods.

lots of reminders of my past, my more distant past. Places and people I haven't thought of in a long time...

and no H- not the ones you and I talked about.

It makes me feel old and tired. and very very sad.

and just a little violent and angry. so I didn't go out tonight at all.

I dunno. Going up to the hill during Pride seems to always leave me feeling really fucked up. I think perhaps I should avoid it in the future. :(

Maybe it is the problem with being Bisexual in a Hetero/Homo world. I think my Uncle's have a harder time dealing with me being Bi (they are Gay) than my Grandmother did (she was straight, just for reference). I dunno, maybe it is just all of the memories.

Think I will go cry for a while, or maybe kill things in a video game. Maybe both.

and then sleep.