dark moods.
Jun. 30th, 2002 12:25 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
staxxylots of reminders of my past, my more distant past. Places and people I haven't thought of in a long time...
and no H- not the ones you and I talked about.
It makes me feel old and tired. and very very sad.
and just a little violent and angry. so I didn't go out tonight at all.
I dunno. Going up to the hill during Pride seems to always leave me feeling really fucked up. I think perhaps I should avoid it in the future. :(
Maybe it is the problem with being Bisexual in a Hetero/Homo world. I think my Uncle's have a harder time dealing with me being Bi (they are Gay) than my Grandmother did (she was straight, just for reference). I dunno, maybe it is just all of the memories.
Think I will go cry for a while, or maybe kill things in a video game. Maybe both.
and then sleep.
and no H- not the ones you and I talked about.
It makes me feel old and tired. and very very sad.
and just a little violent and angry. so I didn't go out tonight at all.
I dunno. Going up to the hill during Pride seems to always leave me feeling really fucked up. I think perhaps I should avoid it in the future. :(
Maybe it is the problem with being Bisexual in a Hetero/Homo world. I think my Uncle's have a harder time dealing with me being Bi (they are Gay) than my Grandmother did (she was straight, just for reference). I dunno, maybe it is just all of the memories.
Think I will go cry for a while, or maybe kill things in a video game. Maybe both.
and then sleep.
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Whew!
Whenever I go to Pride, I always miss Brian. The best cure I can think of is to go out there and have the BEST time we possibly can.
Anywho.... *hugs*.... anytime!
Re: Whew!
Date: 2002-07-09 12:13 pm (UTC)I love Hugs!!!